apa perasaan kau bila kau get your closed friend caught red-handed on doing immoral thing?

baru baru ni daku terlibat dalam satu kejadian jenayah kecil. no, it is not me doing that. in the case, daku menjadi salah seorang daripada witness, atas satu kejadian yang tak bermoral di tempat kerja. dan yang paling perit untuk ditelan, menjadi saksi kepada sesuatu kejadian yang tak bermoral yang dilakukan oleh seorang kawan rapat, yang bernama eleven.

introducing eleven, my closed friend.

kenapa eleven; sebab tak perlulah kan nak expose nama sebenar kat sini. tak nak mengaibkan sesiapa, dan tujuan update entry pasal ni adalah untuk peringatan diri sendiri dan kalau kalau ia boleh mendatangkan iktibar kepada orang lain.

rapat, means, hurmmm.. baik. layanan dia selama kitorang berkawan memang baik. dia banyak bagi bantuan pada beberapa perkara yang perlu diuruskan dalam hal peribadi daku. well of course dia tak perfect, cuma layanan baik dia tu dah memadai.

after eleven get caught red-handed doing that immoral thing, dia terus walk away without saying things. bila jadi macam ni, perasaan daku mula berbelah bahagi. paling obvious, masa mengumpul bukti untuk hang dia pada status guilty. terus berharap, eleven is not making a mess. maybe it was just misunderstanding or biased judging.

but evidence had a big mouth more that you could imagine. eleven is proven guilty. in the trial between eleven and eleven’s foe, eleven not defends eleven-self well. eleven get easily choked and proved guilty by the physical and mental judgment.

after that, eleven just get away from there, without say anything so it is like give me a pang on the face. that is how i am losing eleven, my closed friend.

i was thinking of sending to eleven a short text maybe. asking; what is up now with you. even eleven did something wrong; eleven never did anything wrong to me. i shall not ignore eleven’s gone. tapi, dia akan reply ke text daku? dia akan treat daku macam biasa ke as like we did before?

daku kecewa. mungkin kecewa kat diri sendiri, sebab kenapa tak cuba warning eleven for what eleven did wrong. maybe eleven could changed and tried to fix things right.

atau mungkin kecewa kat eleven, kenapa perlu dia buat semua ni, sedangkan dia sebenarnya tak perlu buat semua ni.

i do not hate u eleven. because eleven never treats me wrong.

but i hate what eleven did wrong.

because; i have just learned;

دان جاڠنله كامو چمڤورادوقكن كبنرن دڠن كباتيلن (كسلاهن) دان جاڠنله كامو سمبوڽيكن كبنرن، سداڠكن كامو مڠتاهويڽ

[Al - Baqarah : 42]